It’s freeing to know that man has created such evolution with Medicine, as we sit with the neurologist and I pray before going to walk the plank for my Brain MRI, I quickly realize, this is happening. I am 29 and walking into a room to scan my Brain.
I was engulfed with fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of hearing more answers, fear of him not being able to lie next to me while this test happens. Just plain old fear in every form. "Marrina" called out the staff...I hugged Ricardo "I’m so scared Hunnie", his arms felt so safe, so full of love, "Marrina, you are strong, beautiful, smart and a loving woman, you can do this" he repeated to me. I just couldn’t take anymore answers; I had heard enough and didn’t want any form of tests being done anymore.
As I follow the staff back the chatter of the male nurse seems coached, we get to our destination and he looks at the chart, "oh my, you're young, why are you having a Brain MRI?" I am already scared out of my wits, and now this guys is re-assuring me that I am young...Jeezzeee...give me a brake and just take the darn test...15 minutes later the test was done...and I darted out of there so fast, I just couldn’t wait for it to be over with. I push through the waiting room doors and where the heck is Ricardo? Oh he must be just sitting in the car, so I call, nope, he jogged to starbucks. Going through something so serious affects the people you lean on most, you never realize how quickly your fear turns into theirs also.
Ricardo is right you're a very strong woman and you have the strength to fight this with everything you have. Through God all things are possible.
Posted by: Sylvia lechuga | 08/31/2011 at 12:37 PM
You are strong Marrina!! He is strong. This is just another stepping stone in your life, there is nothing to fear as long as you have HIM walking next to you. You should be proud I'm speaking these words. Yesterday, I would have not been able to even read your excerpt. Love you. Smile and laugh.
Posted by: Ariane | 08/31/2011 at 01:42 PM